Several months ago, I read this article and it immediately threw me into a panic. I thought "I'm not doing any of these things! I need to make more mistakes! I don't have time! Somebody get me a Devil Wears Prada type of boss STAT!" I was never going to reach thirty, flirty, and thriving if I didn't do all the things outlined in the article.
Eventually I calmed down, but not until I had a glass of red and several chocolate chip cookies.
This article came out in July and I'm still having trouble processing my feelings over it. There are days when I feel like I've got time to figure out life and how to be an adult, and other days when I feel like a total screw-up because I'm 26 years old and I don't have my own start-up by now.
In fact, I feel conflicted most days, like there's this inner battle going on between my younger self (who still thinks she is in her early twenties) and my older self (my more responsible, adult side). It's like that Native American tale about the two wolves that are inside of you, and they fight, and you know, something happens, and it was a one man wolf pack, but now there is four in the pack. Does that make sense?
Anyway, before I continue to ramble for too long, here are the constant battles I fight with myself every day:
Carefree Katie (CK): "Wow, Forever 21 has such trendy clothes at such great prices!"
Adult Katie (AK): "Anyone who has lived longer than a quarter of a century doesn't need to be shopping at Forever 21. Ann Taylor Loft is having a very nice sale!"
AK: "10pm seems like a really good time to go to bed."
CK: "I'm going to stay up late and drink ALL the wine!"
CK: "I'll just hit the drive-thru at Taco Bell for lunch."
AK: "I'm going to pack a healthy lunch today, with this low-carb, whole weat bread and turkey, then I'll have some carrots for a snack."
CK: "I think I"ll spend my Saturday binge-watching Parks & Rec on Netflix."
AK: "Today I will do the laundry, organize the office, pay bills, go to the grocery store, and prep all of my meals for the week."
AK: "This is a very nice Christmas bonus! I will take it to my bank and invest it wisely."
CK: "EXTRA MONEY!!! Helllooooo, Kate Spade outlet!"
I could keep going, but you get the idea. Guess who wins most of the time? Carefree Katie, because being responsible is sooo hard!
How do the rest of my twenty somethings feel? Still trying to cling to the vestiges of your youth while trying to be a responsible person? Is this what a quarter life crisis feels like?
Two more days until the weekend friends--stay young and never grow up.