Well it's been a few since we last talked! There are several reasons for that. Life with our newborn is starting to get just a little bit smoother, which means we're getting out more. Aida has a very full social calendar. Grocery shopping, lots of mall walking, walks in the park when the weather cooperates, meet ups with the moms group, and of course, dates at the winery.
Another reason that I've been absent is that I spent most of April worrying and being anxious about my job. I truly did not want to go back. Every time I thought about leaving her to go back to work, I would start to feel ill and would more often than not start crying. Honestly, I think this stress contributed to a Crohn's Disease flare up, which happened right around my birthday. April was a tough month, but both of those things have been figured out--the Crohn's flare was sorted out with some tweaking of my meds, and we've made the decision that I will stay home full time with Aida.
Needless to say, I'm very excited to be staying home with Aida--it's something I've always wanted to do. My mom stayed home with us when we were little, and looking back, I really treasure all that time she was able to spend with us. I feel very fortunate that we are able to make this work, because I know there are plenty of women out there who would love to stay home but are unable to do so financially. I also know there are plenty of women that want to continue in their career, but have to deal with all the emotions that come from recently having a baby, plus all the unnecessary guilt that society lays on. It's a tough gig being a mom, because more often than not, you're damned if you do and damned if you don't.
I hope to get back into a routine with blogging, but for now, I'm really just enjoying these moments with our sweet girl.